Sunday, May 30, 2010 @ 4:11 AM


;Misery at its best .



It's 4.14 am now .
As usual , i cant fall asleep .
I had already became an owl .
Today , baby went to malaysia .
Miss her alot , cant sms her :x .
I miss her to the max .
Hope she come back soon with lots of goodies for me .
I am wondering what is she doing now in malaysia .
Perhaps she sleeping le bah (:
Hope she's enjoying herself in malaysia .
A day without you , is a day spend in misery .
Without you , i 'll be miserable .

Guess i am gonna turn in to bed soon .
Time fly fast fast please .

Thursday, May 27, 2010 @ 4:54 AM


;Run , Run , Jump , Jump , Hide , Hide .


Yesterday , which is wednesday may 26 .
Norman ask me pei him ton in maple .
We ton from 1am to 6am and went to school .
I finally went to school , hahas .
Feel so weird to be wearing my school uniform .
Went to school seh seh one .
Very sleepy .
Slept for at least 2 hour in school .
After school , went gym with norman .
After that we went to hougang mall to meet our form teacher ,
as she 's giving us a treat .
After eating , 62-ed home .



My journey had ceased ,
Holiday have arrived ,
They have been yearning for this moment .


its 5 am now .
I shall go and take a short nap before going to school later at 10am for Parent meeting .
Hoho , gotta see principal later .
Wonder what will happen .
Goodnight for now .

Wednesday, May 26, 2010 @ 12:31 AM


Apparently , i cant fall asleep .
I m having gastric pain right now .
But there's nothing for me to eat now , guess i have to tahan until tomorrow .
Insomnia really sucks .
If only i could jab myself to sleep .
sms-ed with zongyu .
talked about lots of stuffs and heart2heart talk .
by default , i should be going to school tomorrow .
its the last day of school anyway .
Thursday - meet the parent session , no school .
Friday - Vesak day .



it had been so long since i last wrote a poem .
i shall do one now , as i am bored to the max !


Contradiction is a part of life ,
Opposition aint a choice ,
Cravings are what i yearn for ,
Obliged by greed ,
Every single second , the time is ticking ,
i begin to miss you more and more ,
Questioned by others ,
Staying in my stance ,
Proving my love wont change ,
it will never change .

Friday, May 21, 2010 @ 11:43 PM


;我只能夠默默地等你


today i woke up at around 9 am .
Was late for school , thus i didnt go .
First thing i did when i woke up from my bed was to message my dear .
Opps i mean " rosie " .
At first i typed " good morning baby " , but i realised something was wrong .
I changed it to " good morning "
at time i feel like using the word " wifey " and "baby "
but i know , i cant .
Come to me soon , i miss you .
Currently stuck to maple , i guess .
Play 2 days , a total of (36hours )
Managed to level to lvl 55 .


I love to write , but i hate to read .
I love to comprehend , but i hate to understand .
I love to think , but i hate to ponder .
Whenever i think of you , i will look out of the window and stare far .
Whenever i miss you , i would hug my pillow .
Whenever i feel like kissing you , i would kiss my bolster .
Whenever i dreamt of you , i would tell myself , its a good dream .
I miss you to the max .
Hope you are working towards your A1 . (:
Although we have only been seperated for few days ,
it seems few years to me .
i 'll be awaiting you to come back to me .


reply to tags ;

to wifey ; (: sorry , cant bring myself to call you rosie . <3
to shermain ; sorry about it uh .

Thursday, May 20, 2010 @ 9:28 PM


;im the real devil


You aint a devil , theres no equal to begin with .
I owe you much more than this .
No amount of torment you dealt to me , could erase my guilt .
Every moment seems to be moving very slowly .
Every second , i 'would think of you .
People says ' time heals ' but i reckon it .
I know , some wounds will never be healed , neither will it be alleviated .
I can still hear echo of my past sins .
I was one of those bastard who hurt you without sparing a second thought .
Sorry , i have added stress to you .
Every single second , i am missing you silently .
i am afraid to take the initiative to message you , as i am afraid i might affect you .
I 'll wait patiently for you .
I wont rush you , neither will i push you .

Theres something that you know , but i want you to remember it .
I once said that , my unconditional love for you will never change .
I today told kengwee , no matter how many time we might be seperated ,
I will always be waiting for you , as i know this time round ,
I am not playing , i am serious in loving you .

Indeed , stress is something that everyone will experienced in life .
Remember i told you , i am afraid that "someone" will surpass me in english ?
I was stress at that period of time , i had no one to confide in .
I kept asking my english teacher for papers to do ,
I kept doing , trying , practising ,
but eventually , i still lost the battle .
But i know , i did my best .


Went out with kengwee today .
Play pool at kovan , went to ikea to eat .
Kengwee 's friend said im gay .
Wow . im amazed !



---

If nothing last forever , can you be my nothing ?
If all good things come to an end , can you be my bad things ?

No matter ,
my love will not change ,
i will wait for you .

A l l t h e b e s t f o r y o u r e x a m !

Remember to miss me !
always loving you ,
Lu wei cong , 24o1 .



reply to tags ;
shermain ; Hey ! i might not be able to attend your bday celebration on 29 may .

Wednesday, May 19, 2010 @ 11:10 PM


My unconditional love for you will never change





early morning , 10am , people drilling my floor liao .
renovation today .
only slept for 4 hours today .
i understand the decision you made .
Hope you will come back to me .
i 'll treat you the same , as good as before .
my love for you will never change .
i still love and miss you as much as i did .

Tuesday, May 18, 2010 @ 11:13 PM


;Come back to me , please .



i guess its like a replica of yesterday .
History repeated itself .
Baby , i really missed you alot .
I wished i could cry my heart out loud .
i didnt attend school for 2 days .
tomorrow shall be the 3rd day i guess .
My grandma told me to go out tomorrow and dont come home ,
as tomorrow my house will be under renovation .
i have no where to go .
i want to find you , but im afraid .
i want to ask you out , but you wont reply to my sms .
I guess i shall go to the beach tomorrow morning till night bah .
or perhaps .......... i have no idea too .


Lonelyness sucks .
i hate the feeling of being alone .
yeah , i may seem desperate ,
spamming you with messages without you replying .
i wonder if anyone understand how i feel .
Devasted ? Depressed ?
i knew you never loved me from the start ,
but my unconditional love for you didnt change at all .
Right from the day we stead , till now ,
my love for you didnt even change a single bit .
Its like a bloodcells , it kept multiplying by itself .
I know , you once said ,
what we are now , is because of the past .
and eventually , we might breakup , may also have to do with the past .

i believe its karma .
2years back ,
i did the same thing to you .
i send you a message saying that i wanted to break up with you ,
and no matter how hard you tried ,
i didnt pick up ur calls / reply to your messages .
i finally understand how you feel now .
Sorry .
i 'll use blood as a tribute for every tears that you shed for me 2 years ago .
i did regretted what i did 2 years ago .
I know words are useless .

I know i aint a good stead either .
but , baby please .
Can you not ignore me ?
every single second spent without you is a misery to me .
i kept look at the time ticking away , hoping that you would reply me .

my mum kept ranting at me ,
telling me skipping school without valid reason for 3 days will get expel .
but whats the point of going to school when i dont feel like studying .


" i need you , really . "




reply to tags .
to wifey ; its okay narh . wifey , dont ignore my messages hao mah ? please .
to shermain ; lol u r lucky that u didnt get killed . sorry uh , didnt join you and ur friends for lunch . Didnt have the mood for lunch . And , i got 70 + marks for my english overall . Not sure of the exact mark .

Monday, May 17, 2010 @ 11:52 PM


;Right till the end .

now , i know the truth .
my worst nightmare have come true .
you are in the midst of consideration .
i am contradicting myself to the very core .
i wont let you go , i need you .
i will hold on to you , right till i end my last breathe .
i will wait for you , i m not making an empty promise here .
i will really wait for you .
You should know how much i love you ,
my love for you has always been true .
i know , the decision is in your hand , but please let me love you .







reply to tags ;
wifey ; i have bad nightmares .. i cant sleep at night , i cant only force myself to do so .
i am feeling really sad , i need your concern .
Sorry wifey , dont angry me hao mah ..

Saturday, May 15, 2010 @ 9:39 PM


Can words really described how someone feel ?

i beg to differ .
Words are what people see , and forget , they can never understand how you feel just by looking at the words you time .
So whats the use of learning so many vocabs , verbs , adverbs , nouns , conjunction .
They cant describe how mankind feel .
I have seen the cruelty of mankind( the unfeeling beast)


Reply to tags ;

to GR : done (:
to zixian : hello xmm (:
to shermain : lol sian then come tag my blog . n1

@ 12:59 AM


happy birthday to my wifey 's little brother (reyrey)

Saturday, May 8, 2010 @ 2:58 AM


;Honestly , what will become of me ?



i should say , i this whole week never go school bahs .
Monday - Labour day .
Tues , Wed - Rest at home .
Thur - Went to school but reported sick .
Today - Never go school .

Norman must be feeling very sad . i shall go to school next week (:


i no longer have a diary , neither do i write words with emotions anymore .
Speak without fear , words without torment , thoughts without nightmare .
Benetton have been coming my house for 3 days to dota .
I must say , he's a noob ! LOL .
I 'have run out of words to type .
Opps Sorry .



reply to tags ;

Wifey -> Ya norh , wifey know me so well . Zhun zhun 50 can le (:
-> Wifey <3

Norman -> Same for you uh ? norman steady la , exam we put water . aim 50 nia . Chinese get
5 mark can le
-> U very tiongxim my blog , always come and visit one . thanks uh !

Saturday, May 1, 2010 @ 1:04 AM


;Baby i need you now .




Today english exam .
i went into the examination hall , with an " sure - fail " attitude .
paper 1 , i guess i might have written out of point .
paper 2 , i aint sure whether that the paper is too easy , or my standard of english is too high .
I aint boasting , but i overheard over than 20-3o people from other classes complaining that the paper 2 comprehension was difficult .
Even norman find it difficult .
To me , i didnt find it hard to comprehend .
i managed to answer all question with a single obsticale .
Hope i can get 65 marks or above , and my english teacher will buy me a chocolate .
wakakakaka .


Baby , today we didnt sms much uh .
Smsed you in the noon ,
you didnt reply much .
Took to take a nap to ease myself , and my tired soul .
Woke up at around 7pm +
saw that you send me 3 msg .
was kinda happy to see u smsing me when i didnt reply .
it shows me how much you miss me .
But after afterwhile , you didnt sms me .
I guess u had fallen asleep .
I missed you really much .
During the 3hours , i kept checking msn , audition , to see if you are online .
Sorry to spam you when you are sleeping , but i miss you terribly much .
Theres no way i can spend a minute without you .
Hope tomorrow you will sms me more bahs .



Just ordered mac , and finished eating .
Feeling very bloated now .
I wanna stop typing , but i cant control my fingers .
I love to write / type to relieve stress .
Nothing much to post le .
Gonna write in my diary ( :



replys to tags ;
wifey ; muahhh