Thursday, April 29, 2010 @ 9:11 PM


;ROSIE WIFEY IS MINE


went out with baby today
happy that can finally meet her
went home got fever
going sleep now .

Tuesday, April 27, 2010 @ 8:36 PM


;i 'll do things , your way .


damn pissed off today .
Dad kept tickling my ears , asking me to wake up .
I shouted at him and demanded a apology .
My sister apologise on his behalf .
Saw wifey message , smile for a few second .
First time she send me " good morning " in chinese .
Mum fetch me to school .
Was late for school , 27 time liao .
They let me off , on the account that i had not been late for a long time .
Whole day in school rot ,
waited for wifey sms from 730 until 11 + ,
but there was no reply .
Not in the mood for lesson ,
borrow a piece of foolscap paper from norman ,
and begin to write how i feel on the paper ,
i was feeling very depressed at the point of time ,
writing is the only way out ,
wrote a 2 page poem , for the first time ,
Denise snatched my paper n read it , followed by nicole and norman .
Denise ask me dont be sad , cheer up .
skipped Social Studies lesson with norman .
We slacked on the stairs for 2 periods ,
after that , went for srp from 130 to 230 ,
went for chinese oral after that .
Today my pen spoil , nice aint it ?




i have decided to do things your way ,
i wont pester you , neither will i force you to talk on phone with me .
though , i will be sad and feel miserable , but i am willing to torment it ,
as long you are leading a happy life ,
even if i get tormented to death ,
i will never regret .
if this is your choice , i guess i shall take the torment , every single day .

Monday, April 26, 2010 @ 11:17 PM


;On and On , like a windmail .



did not go to school today .
today , got scam in friends for sale , serve me right for being greedy .
i have learned many lessons this year .
I am greedy , irritating , bastard , unloving , unhonest , and more to be named .
I bang against the wall -.-


I am afraid of the dark ,
I am afraid of failure ,
I am afraid of not hearing your voice ,
I am afraid of heartaches ,
I am afraid of nausea ,
I am afraid of everything .


My english teacher told me ,
My english is good , very poetic ,
She said , Bascially to her ,
a good poem must be able to move its readers and relates to them in terms of circumstance .


But to me , i dont really like to write with emotions .
Words are just words to me ,
and they are cheap .

@ 1:03 AM


;HAPPY 3MONTH ANNIVERSARY




yesterday was a unlucky day ,
it all first started by my deardear forgot to bring her ez link .
sorry wifey , make you waited me so long until your hair wet wet .
my sincere apology .
We went to j8 , deardear asked me where i wanted to go in a harsh tone .
could sensed that my wifey very angry at me .
after that , we went to suntec n eat (:
when i was eating , my soup spilled .
after that , we went to shop shop , went to many different places .
when we was in a daiso shop , my deardear knock until something n it drop .
after that , deardear send me to mrt station and muacks me .
hehe ;shy .
went home , got hitted in the face and fell down .
deardear told me her slippers spoil ..
what a unlucky day .


Deardear , though many bad things happen , i enjoyed the moment spend with you (:
Muacks , ily wifey . We are married le hor , dont forget !
Thanks for spending your day with me .
I love you , xoxo .

Hearing your voice is the best music on earth , i love to hear your voice .
A kiss without a hug is like a flower without the fragrance

Thursday, April 22, 2010 @ 11:15 PM


; i want you in my life



today my zhu took a afternoon nap !
after that , sms her awhile , and then chat on phone .
(:
wifey ily .
2 days more .

Wednesday, April 21, 2010 @ 11:15 PM


;i have hurt a 12 old girl



no amount of pain received in me , will be able to equal the pain you suffered 2 years ago .
i made you fall in love with me , yet i push you down .
i am sorry for what i have done , 2 years back .
i know , it was heartless of me , to leave you .
i gave you nothing but sorrow ,
i m just a jerk .

i made you trusted me .
i made you no longer believing in love .
i made you have the impression that love is just hurt .
i was wrong , i know .

i know , its too late to say anything now ,
you no longer believed in love .
you no longer trust love .
no matter how i tried now , you wont be able to feel love .
your heart have already been cogged by hurt , pain , torments and sufferings .

I made you suffer alone , i ruin your love life .
You are no longer a life buoy .
You are not a love toy ,
You are the one i really loved , right now .
You will no longer receive torments .
i will be with you , till the end .

Hold my hand , i 'll walk with you ,
never will i leave you again ,
i swear .
i will hug you tight this time round ,
i wont let you be lonely now ,

Memories will never be erased ,
bad memories do stay for life ,
i never spare a thought for a 12 old girl ,
you were simply so young , and yet you got hurt by me .

I dare not asked for more now ,
all i merely ask for is ,
let me love you ,
i wont hurt u again ,
i assure you .

You know , when i met you at j8 ,
i wanted to hold your hand ,
and tell you how much i loved you ,
i know , u hated me alot .
You once told me , you stead with me to have revenge ,
but i dont blame you , i really dont .
i committed a sin , never will be able to erase it .
But , i still love you postively ,
hope that each day will be a better day ,
hoping that we could last long ,
hoping that i could protect you ,
take care of you when you are sick ,
care for you when you need me ,
share you joy and sorrow ,
lend you my shoulder .

i remembered , at bishan park ,
when i sitted next to you and hugged you ,
i could feel my heartbeat accelerating to it maximum ,
i knew at the moment , i only want to be with you .
my love for you is real , without any motive .

i dont mind you ranting at me when u are angry ,
i dont mind you venting your anger at me ,
i dont mind you scolding me ,
i dont mind you pinching me ,
i dont mind you hitting me ,
i just want to be with you .

You gave me warmth when i was cold ,
you hugged me when i needed you ,
you made me feel loved by you .

Every mistakes i have done ,
i apologise for it .
Talk is cheap , my apologise may mean nothing ,
but it comes right from the bottom of my heart .


Holding too tightly ,
afraid of losing you ,
loving you with my very best ,
trying to erase those nightmare in you ,
pulverizing my demons ,
resurrecting a new me ,
indulging my only soul in loving you ,
never will i want to part with you ,
i know eternity doesnt exist ,
but i will never leave you .






Reply to tag ;

to passerby ; Your grammer , and vocab indeed amazed me . i was dumbfounded for a second , or so . You wrote " you're suffering instead being blissful with her . " aint the sentence suppose to be instead of being blissful with her ? Perhaps you type too fast uh , keyboard warrior . Sorry to be cynical , i enjoyed the time spent with her . Blissful or not , its for me to judge , when did it become yours ? i rofled at that . Nice contradiction you have btw , you dont know what is love , and yet u gave advice on " blissful " ? Dont self pwn in the cyber world . It will kill brains cells .
Do you not know what is Noblese oblige? Perhaps this is too chim for you . Google " Noblese oblige" then . Perhaps you find a defination for it . Theres nothing i can do if you aint satisfied with my respond , i aint required to entertain you , feel free to flame me if you want , but remember , dont self pwn . Commenting on a tagboard without a name , is never the answer .

Tuesday, April 20, 2010 @ 8:47 PM


;Baby is moody .



baby dont no mood le uh .
dont quarrel with ur mama le .
was quite happy though u called me at 7pm .
though , we chatted a little ,
but i enjoyed it .
thanks .
waited for 30min , kept repeating hello dear , but no reply .
i guess my deardear sleep le bahs .
Sleep well baby , forget everything today , forget the arguement u have , and have a nice rest .
Must remember me hor !






to passerby ; I guess i know who you are , from your unique style of typing . Your name ends with a " h " if i am not wrong . Well , let me asked you then , when was the last time you experienced REAL love . Or should i phrase it in another way . Do u even know what is love ? Quarrels and isolation is a part of love . And i dont get tired upon crying , i 'hv already get the hang of it . I second myself upon my thoughts , i have questioned myself , and i know , i will never let her go , cause i LOVE her . Well , u dont think so , thats your point of view , not mine . Different people have their own way of doing things , and their own view . That is why flame wars and riots exist . Thus , theres no need for me agree to your saying , or acknowledge it . As long as i find theres it worth it .

Monday, April 19, 2010 @ 8:52 PM


i no longer know how to alleviate my pain .


today , in school , today no mood .
didnt really talk to anyone much .
i hv' lost interest in writing .
writing used to be a way to alleviate my pain , but it no longer seems so .
went to school for the sake of going .
the whole day in school , i could feel my heart bleeding and crying .
i could'nt stop thinking of you .
You made me smile , laugh , care , shy with you in the past ,
why cant we do it the same now ?
If u really recall , whenever i call you in the past , you would pick it immediately ,
even if you are watching tv or eating .
You used to told me to " hold on " last time , but now , its " call me later " .
The world is rotating everyday , you are changing too .
i dont mind you scolding me , ranting at me , venting your anger at me ,
i just wanna hear your voice .

Even i try my really best to change , you will never forget the past ,
No matter how hard , how sincere i am , you will never feel it ,
I hv' loved you wholeheartly , since the day we stead till now ,
and it will never change .
i wont harrass you and spam you call le bahs , when u feel like talking , just call me , i will definately call you back .


;reply to tags .

to shermain ; hahas , i wont .
to Nina ; hi .
to kengwee ; something happen , but it happen , and i stop it from happening ,but it still happen , and now it happened . Love is my top priority now .
to wifey ; you are the only one i love , thus i will only shed tears for you , and not any other girls . Its worth to me , unless you dont love me . ilyt .

Sunday, April 18, 2010 @ 5:44 PM


Whenever i think a little bit more , i cry . When i think a little less , i have insomnia .


i no longer have hp , i can no longer sms you , i can only miss u silently .
U no longer wants to talk to me , i have tried praying , wishing , hoping that you will talk to me .
But it all didnt work , im all alone .

@ 1:39 AM


Boring weekends , its sucks .
didnt chat with you much , didnt sms much either .
nothing much today , simply too plain n boring .
mum kpkb , and dw lend me phone liao .
kthxbai .
tomorrow is just another lonely day .



replys to tag ;
wifey ; not short nor . ;mua .

Saturday, April 17, 2010 @ 2:03 AM


Today , i got called for spot check .
They found 2 handphone and 1 lighter on me .
Got suspended from school .
End of story .

Saturday, April 10, 2010 @ 3:01 PM


;Heartache




this special feeling , they called it love .
aint about how much you taken from it , but how much u had given .
aint about possesion , as long they are happy .
these are what i say , but definitely not what i meant .


thanks for telling me , at least u made me understand how u felt .

these are what i didnt say , but definitely what i meant .
Love is selfish .
i only want you to be by my side , i 'll never want you to leave me .
that will be my worst nightmare .
they said , i 'hv changed you .
what you are now is what i have caused you to be ,
i m sorry , but i loved you wholeheartly .
all of a sudden , i felt the pain , the suffocation .
memories kept coming back to me .
i am a jerk , yes i am .
you were ruined by me .
right now in me , i only want you to be with me .

i 'm contradicting myself over and over again .
i 'hv never said what i meant , instead i m always saying what i dont meant ,
suffering all alone .



You were the best gift i can ever have in life ,
I never expected i could be so lucky to have you .
You made me laugh and cried with you .
We shared sorrow and terror together .
You are the one i really trusted , no matter what .
I gave you all my love ,
You are everything that mattered to me .
i swear , i cant really survived without you .
Drifting begins to take its place ,
Shattering hearts into pieces ,
Shredding into tears ,
if this is a dream ,
i would never ,
want to be ,
awake .

Friday, April 9, 2010 @ 8:28 PM


;No amount of words can ever describe how i feel .


tonned with norman last night until 5am .
went to bathe and prepare .
left house at 5.40 .
managed to catch the first lrt .
reached j8 at 6.30
deardear bu guai , turn up late . hahas jk .
send deardear to school , first time wor
after that , went home to have my breakfast and charged my hp .
met norman at kovan superbowl .
we waited for like 30mins then can go in .
after than , go vivo slack slack .
around 12.20 , went back to j8 to wait for dear .
we waited for her outside her school .
after that , we all went to eat pizza hut together .
then jiu send dear home le .
thats all for today .
might update more later .




replys to tags -
;Zixian - relinked le , ps so long then relink u .
;Norman - lol abit of fun , abit of laughter .
; deardear - orhs , u say de uh . deardear too white le .

Tuesday, April 6, 2010 @ 10:37 PM


;How i wish we can go back to the past


Went to school today .
Chinese teacher didnt came , a relieve teacher came and took over .
He came to me and asked if i m from china , i said no .
He said i looked like one .
After that , he offered to help me take my pulse .
After reading for few seconds , he told me no matter what he say , i cannot get angry or too serious about me .
Upon hearing that , i got startled , i was worrying on what hes gonna tell me .
He told me , i am a soft spoken thinker , a calm person , not the aggressive type , has lot of patiences , and he told me i can only be a follower , not a leader .
After that , i thanked him for helping me read my pulse .
After school , went for speech day rehersal .
Keep do my steps wrong , then make benetton they all keep redo with me .




it had been a long time since we really had a talk .
Perhaps you are busy watching televisions or doing stuffs bah .
Ever since your handphone spoilt , we hardly talked and sms .
Now that you have your phone , we merely smsed few words and talk awhile on phone .
As day passes by , fear in me began to grew ,
i became , more and more and more afraid of you might leave me one day .
i hope that day wont happen , perhaps i m thinking too much ,
yeah ever since from monday , i kept dreaming about you .
i kept having nightmares and waking up in the middle of the night ,
it had already become a daily routine for me .
i wished i could tell you how much i love you , but love cant be measured ,
how i wish i could spent every single moment with you ,
how i wish we could go back to the past ,
as long i have your love , i m conteted enough , i dont really asked for more , serious .

Monday, April 5, 2010 @ 12:45 PM


theres no pro to begin with ,
they simply train to be strong , stronger , and strongest of all .
Some win by luck , some win by skills .
What happen today wont always happen .
Theres no pro for life , they are just a legend , and a past .
Surpass me , puny humans .

when a pro meets a pro ,
a battle is inevitable ,
whatever the overcome ,
both will remain their stand and fight it all out ,
but as for me , i 'll choose to run ,
i aint fit to own .



play few match of dota ,
lost on purpose .
my team keep kan me rofl .
after losing 2 match , i finally picked my favourite hero .
won the game with the score of 31 kill , 0 death .

Thursday, April 1, 2010 @ 10:36 PM


; i give in , everytime .



i wasnt given a chance to explain , neither am i given a chance to prove my innocence .
Push all the blame to me , im fine with me .
No is interested in knowing what happened , as long as one person cry , the person who whine wins .
Well , i didnt beat my sister .
This is my side of story .

She provoked me , kept refreshing my past ,
rage got the better of me , i push her face to the pillow ,
she cried , my dear hang the call .
what about me ?
Does whinning really means victory ?
i 'll whine then .
After my dear kap , my sister walked out of her room ,
came back and kicked my back with all the force she could exert ,
i guess that is that people call " moments of anger "
i was in pain , i didnt make a sound , i didnt mention anything .
My mum accused me of slapping my sister , i didnt told her i was being wronged and got kicked .

Yeah , dear getting her handphone tomorrow .
She had fallen asleep le bah , i guess .
tomorrow going out with family after that going out with kw .



" Physical pain doesnt really matter , but not emotional pain . Dear im sorry . "