;Heartache
this special feeling , they called it love .
aint about how much you taken from it , but how much u had given .
aint about possesion , as long they are happy .
these are what i say , but definitely not what i meant .
thanks for telling me , at least u made me understand how u felt .
these are what i didnt say , but definitely what i meant .
Love is selfish .
i only want you to be by my side , i 'll never want you to leave me .
that will be my worst nightmare .
they said , i 'hv changed you .
what you are now is what i have caused you to be ,
i m sorry , but i loved you wholeheartly .
all of a sudden , i felt the pain , the suffocation .
memories kept coming back to me .
i am a jerk , yes i am .
you were ruined by me .
right now in me , i only want you to be with me .
i 'm contradicting myself over and over again .
i 'hv never said what i meant , instead i m always saying what i dont meant ,
suffering all alone .
You were the best gift i can ever have in life ,
I never expected i could be so lucky to have you .
You made me laugh and cried with you .
We shared sorrow and terror together .
You are the one i really trusted , no matter what .
I gave you all my love ,
You are everything that mattered to me .
i swear , i cant really survived without you .
Drifting begins to take its place ,
Shattering hearts into pieces ,
Shredding into tears ,
if this is a dream ,
i would never ,
want to be ,
awake .
